No, I’m not talking about the T.V. Show! I’m constantly asked about my “love life” and people seem to be amazed that I’m not married with children. I don’t know what to tell those people, it’s obvious I don’t have a ring on my finger and a kid on my side, right? Although, when I’m with my nephews — I always get the “your kids are so cute” speech from chicks, which is cool with me.

I can’t say I never wanted to get married… I think the only girl I honestly wanted to Marry was Kathy, my ex-girlfriend. We dated for close to a year…actually we were like…well — let’s just say we dated for over a year.

We got along great when we weren’t fighting. Usually, that was only when her friends weren’t around. She seemed to enjoy looking “cool” in front of her friends or something? It was “so High School”. During the Summer of 2003 we grew pretty close. She would drive out to Vegas and spend the weekend with me and even more on some occassions. I would drive out to visit her when she couldn’t visit me. So, we basically spent weekends together for about 3 months or so, maybe more. Then around my Birthday she had this fear of being pregnant. She had every symptom and I was a nervous wreck but excited as hell to be a father. Unfortunately, she had a miscarriage, which she now says was not a miscarriage…uhhhhh, yeah. Anyways, we moved in together in September of 2003 and all hell broke loose. See — orginally we were going to move in together, just me and her, but then her friend whom I hated was going to be on the streets, unless she moved in… I was all for the streets, it was better than having to see her everyday!

Unfortunately, things didn’t work out with the Girlfriend being too immature around friends and the friend being a manic depressive, jealous, manipulating cunt. But, before we had talked about moving in together — I was planning on proposing to her. That was the closest I had ever gotten and I’m not sure if I will ever get the chance to again (Not with her — but finding someone I really love). She was definately my only “true love”.

Do I want to get married and have kids? Sure do… but I also see too many divorces and forced marriages. I don’t want to get into something like that. I HATE wasting time with someone who was only there to irritate me and lead me closer to Cardiac Arrest lol

Who knows though…